Sunday, December 2, 2012

My gift this year

Kerry wearing "Goldie Dots" sunglasses from BombshellBettie.Com

My most precious gift is life.

L to R and Top to Bottom:  Kerry & Erin (Owners of Bombshell Bettie), Kerry & Her Husband on their wedding day, Kerry looking fab at the Wheels, Wings, and Rotors event at Los Alamitos JFTB, Kerry with a smile on her face, Kerry's daughter sporting the Bombshell Bettie shades, and Kerry & Her Husband's name on a tattoo necklace

First and foremost.. Thank you Thank you Thank you to all the Bombshell Bettie fans, my family, my friends, and of course my doctors and nurses.  Thank you for your kind words, and for your prayers. 

2011 was a very very bad year for me.  Aside from the health issues I also went through a very traumatic home life.  I was very depressed.  I tried to be strong and not think of all the possibilites but I'm only human and I started focusing really bad on all the negative possibilites that could come my way.  I was terrified.

March 7th, 2012- Was my next biopsy.  A few days later to my surprise the results came back negative for cancer.  Finally a sigh of relief.  I felt so much relief however my doctor told me to come back in 4 months for another biopsy.  Another waiting game....

July 19th, 2012- My doctor collected another biopsy.  A few days later he called me.  He was concerned.  He told me there was no cancer found but he said the cells were multiplying too fast.  He put me on a new medication to help me constantly shed my lining (since that's where my cancer grows).  This medication is called Norethin.  It made me extremely drowsy and nauceous at the same time.  I must take this twice daily.  :(  I know this is nothing in comparison to cancer patients on chemo and/or radiation.  I realize how lucky I am to just be taking this medication but regardless it still made me feel horrible. 

Here is the Uterine Cancer ribbon tattoo I got.  Uterine cancer ribbons are peach in color.  I hope to raise some awareness to this very common cancer that does not get enough attention as it should.

Nov 12th, 2012.  This is the night I've probably never been so sick to my stomach.  My biopsy is scheduled for the next day.  I can't eat, I can't think, I can't sleep, I toss and turn and cry thousands of tears.  I have no idea what this biopsy is going to show.  All I know is that the last biopsy was not so good.  I am truly petrified.  Not only could I have cancer again but if it was back there is no way I would ever have a child on my own.  It's a double hitter.  

November 13th arrives.  I go in for the biopsy.  I was crying in the room before the dr even came in.  This time it was the most painful biopsy.  I thought for sure that would mean bad results.  As soon as the doctor left the room I could not help but sob and pray.  At this point there was nothing left for me to do.

An eternity went by before my doctor called me.  Seven days to be exact.  I finally got the call.  He told me that the biopsy came back normal.  NO CANCER.  

Immediately an enormous weight was lifted off my shoulders.  I could immediately feel the release in tension and stress that I had built up in my entire body.  I pray to God no one ever has to experience this, or feel the fear that I felt.  We should all be given the same opportunities at life.  But as we all know... Life is not fair.  I'm so very grateful that I received good news.  It gave me my faith and hope back.  It made me feel alive again.

I am focusing again on taking all my vitamins and antioxidants.  I've researched the ones the fight free radicals and help make the female reproductive system stronger, as well as the ones that build your immunity.  A healthier body can survive & will fight harder, stronger, and longer. 

I've been so focused on myself this 2012.  In the past I would put everyone else first.  This time it was my turn.  I had to focus on myself to get myself healthy.  In 2013 I want to be able to not stress so much about my biopsies and be able to truly go out and enjoy time with family and friends.

Thank you to all of you that lifted my spirits.

Thank you to my sunshine.  You know who you are.  And the princess.  You are my world.  Love you.


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